I brace myself to race myself
force yourself up the stairs.
(its been too long)
you know full well, just tell
Let him know not listening is disrespectful
who cares that he’s the light of your life
the only reason you smile
(he has a wife)
get past the kind eyes that leave you tongue tied
Be the strong woman like everyone always tells you to.
I don’t need your charity, just for clarity
I could’ve done this myself
(with what money?)
maybe i just want to taunt
others with how well I get by in the cold.
none of this comes out in our roundabout though
just the sunshined scent of your skin
(cariño mio its you)
nullifies what I had within
i cry instead of yelling.
just let me be! don’t do this to me
my mind is a steel seive
( you’re amazing)
all brave no cave what a lie
I turn into a little girl in front of you
this is a little city quite pretty
but its one giant hell
(I’m just a puta)
if people knew you bought me things too
this would not end well.
i feel so dirty please don’t think I’m flirting
I’m spaced out on a flashback
(who would trust me?)
I brace for a chase as you get up from your chair
But suddenly you hug me.
what do I say as the world melts away
I press against you, trying to melt
(I’m flirty, just like the dad I never had)
all these words I’ve never said try to leave my head
I bite them back
you’re saying words but my thoughts chirp like birds
my arms won’t hold you but in my mind they do
(I just want to feel safe with you)